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And don’t tell me you’re not scared because I know that you are.
I mean, I’ve known you too long and seen you push away
too many good things to let you push me away right now.
My whole life, you have been the most beautiful thing in my orbit.
And my feelings for you were what proved to me that I could be great.
And those feelings and wiser and more persistent
and more resilient than anything else about me.
I want you to make the effort. I want to me sought after, irresistibly.
I want to occupy your mind, as you do mine.
What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody.
Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time.
I’m constantly reminding myself that you’re not mine anymore.
And it hurts, it hurts like hell. So don’t bother asking,
I’m not okay.
Do you ever sit and think, what if?
What if you had never said the first hello, or what if your paths never crossed?
What if you kept your mouths shut and just let things pass?
What if you just had five more minutes,
what if you could turn back time and make it all stand still,
where would your life be?
Better? Worse? Less confused? More confused?
Happier? Or sadder?
You said you never meant to hurt me,
but that doesn’t make it right. You said you
were wrong and apologised way too many times
but that doesn’t make it okay.
So listen, when I say it’s alright, its not.
When you see the tears falling from my eyes, that means I’m not okay,
I’m not that strong but I guess I should have seen it coming all along.
You make me happy.
But right now I’m stuck in this situation where I don’t know whether
to completely ignore you and try to forget you,
or to stick around and be there for you
just to prove I love you a billion times more than she does.
Today was one of those days where everything I did reminded me of you. Every
song I heard somehow related to you. I hate days like today because
they remind me of the one thing I don’t have.
And if you asked me how I am I’d say Im alright, when the truth is Im not.
I’m not because I miss you more than I ever thought possible,
because I still care and worry about you.
I still love and value you so much in my life even though you’re barely in it now.
And yeah, I’m always on your mind, but only when she’s off it.
So maybe you think of me when times get rough, and when you’re feeling extra
lonely for some girls touch, but that’s not enough.
If you don’t stay together through the bad
then you wont be together for the good.
He asked me what I planned on doing for the rest of my life.
When I said “I don’t know” he got down on one knee and said
“Wanna spend it with me?”
This is why you should never get your hopes up, this is why you should
always see the glass as half empty, so when the whole thing spills, you aren’t as devesated.
I want to be the smile, the first thought, the long drive or the short walk.
The last voice, the random call, the laugh, the perfect kiss.
The comforting hug, your second half,
the sparkle in your eye, the everything you need,
just what you want… I want to be yours.
Because of you, half the time I don’t even know I’m smiling.
When you look at a person, any person,
just remember that everyone has a story.
Everyone has gone through something
that has changed them.
You were there to pick me up when all he did was push me down.
She wants to break down and cry, but she wants to look strong in your eyes.
I want a guy who is right there with me as I walk home in the rain,
who’ll look at me with my dripping wet hair and soaked clothes
and kiss me and say “I’ve never loved you more.”
I bet you've had a hard time walking into a room full of people on your own, right? Yeah. I know that. I know what it is not to feel like you’re in the room until he looks at you or touches your hand or even makes a joke at your expense, just to let everyone know... you're with him. You're his.
- PS I Love You